It’s really sad when you see people that you used to be so close to just drift away from you. Not even saying hi, just glancing at each other awkwardly thinking if you should say anything. All the memories, laughs, and inside jokes that you two shared together; only to be a figment of your memory that may not ever be revealed once again just because one of you are two stubborn to change or make things right again. Things happen for a reason right? :|

I like it when my significant other is clingy. It shows me how much they really care and want to be by my side. No, not that overprotective crap. Just the few messages here and there asking how my day was. It’s even better when it’s in person and they don’t want to be away from me. I just love it :)

Sorry for trying to be a boyfriend that leaves you small little messages. If you don’t like it, then just tell me. Don’t call me a fucking “low life” just because I was thinking of you and I just wanted to talk to you, and I have absolutely nothing else to do.

I don’t think it’s “cute” or “funny” when a guy gets mad. Especially if it’s over a “guy friend” that we don’t like. It pisses me off so much when girls say that. Don’t fuck around with me when I say that I don’t like that guy even if he’s your friend. I know you guys are friends, but there’s a limit to what he can and can’t do. You guys are “teasing” each other, but from another person’s eyes it’s A LOT more than that. I’m just saying, when I hate a guy, I hate him. Nothing is going to make me think otherwise.

Sorry, but I just don’t like that guy. I know that he’s your friend, but I just don’t trust him, not the fact that he likes you, but because, I don’t genuinely know him at ALL.

I want you to be more open to me in this relationship, I told you this before. It might be a little demanding, but it’s not too much to ask for right? For a little more communication? If that’s too much, then I don’t know what’s “just right.” I don’t need to know EVERYTHING that you are doing, just the main points.

No secrets, no regrets, just a more communicative relationship.

You make it seem like you have no confidence in us. It bugs me so much, is that the type of person that you really are? I know you overthink and stuff, but at least be optimistic once in awhile. It’s starting to get irritating now.

I feel really bad for getting you in trouble. I know you say it’s not really my fault, but I feel like we both could have avoided it. I just worry a lot about you even when you tell me not to. The best that we can do is just to let everything settle while things cool off, as there has been numerous incidents of you getting in trouble for the past month or so. I guess I’m just one of those boyfriends that care a lot right?

Sometimes I truly just hate how I think so negative. I think of the worst scenario in a given situation especially if that situation has me in a position to be hurt. It keeps me up at night and I just hate it. 

Reasons why I can’t handle a Long Distance Relationship:

• I get paranoid and jealous easy.
• I’m the type of person that wants to see you every chance I get.
• I’ll miss you so much even if we talk on Facebook or the phone.
• I won’t be able to be there with you if something happens.
• I can’t trust people that I don’t know that’s around you all the time.
• I want to be there for our monthaversaries, anniversaries, and so on.
• I don’t want feelings to change just because of distance.
• I don’t want someone to have to chance to take you away from me.
• I overthink all the time, so distance doesn’t help.
• I just want you to be with me physically and mentally.

I really didn’t want to say goodbye, but there’s nothing else that I can do to change your mind. I just have to accept the fact that you don’t want me in your life anymore. I wish I could have said more, but it didn’t seem like you wanted to talk to me so I just tried my best to make it short. Whatever happens, I just wish you the best and I’m just going to really miss you and whoever replaces me, I just want them to treat you better than me, because I know that I didn’t do the best job of it. All I can do now is move on with my life and remember the good times we had. *sigh. This is going to be hard.